Thursday, September 18, 2008

Can't keep my big mouth shut

I can't keep my big mouth shut.  Don't even front like you are surprised, I know you're not.  So, you would think that I would have learned this lesson by no, I never get the lesson, I just keep on talking, digging the hole deeper and deeper dealing with the consequences later.  I met with my new assistant principal to talk about a math program that I am "allegedly piloting" I say allegedly and put it into quotes because it's very hard to pilot a program when you haven't been trained and are missing half of the materials, but that is a rant for another day...back on we started talking "off the record" about assessments, expectations, and policy.  Me and my big mouth (which have I mentioned I can't keep shut?) volunteer that I don't follow "the rules" because I am against following something simply because it's based on the current book that our curriculum person is infatuated with and quotes as the end-all-be-all since I know she will find some other book next year, contradict herself from this year, and speak to us about it as if she has agreed all along and we are the ones who don't know what is best for our students.  (I know-smooth move slick, way to dog the curriculum person at our school and make yourself look like an ass to the new guy)  He looked at me curiously when I told him I don't follow "the rules" to which I added (stupidly) "and I don't plan on starting now.  I do what works for me and my kids.  Don't worry, I'll get the results the school wants, I just have to do it my way.  You can look at my record...all of my kids from last year, with the exception of four-one who has an IQ in the 70s, two I tried to hold back, and the fourth only missed it by a few points-scored 3s and 4s on the pretest this year...rules are meant to be broken when they don't work."  The ENTIRE TIME I was talking out loud I could hear the internal conversation with myself going, "shut-up-shut-up-shut-up-shut-up-shut-up-shut-up-shut-up-shut-up" but we all know at this point that I can't keep my big mouth shut and I don't listen to my own sound advice.  So hopefully I didn't just put a huge bulls-eye on my back to be watched to see if my kids this year succeed (which they will) while I'm not following "the rules" which side note: are actually not supposed to be rules but are supposed to be used as suggestions, but again that's another embittered teacher rant for another day I'll learn to keep my big mouth shut...actually let's not lie, I probably won't...

1 comment:

SheA said...

oh BAaa lieve me I will not front like I am all.

Someday we will discuss my thoughts about this, but I really can't leave a comment without it looking like a masters degree thesis..and well it's your blog so I don't want to overstep...

ps I COMPLETEly agree with you, and for more input contact me and we can continue this discussion

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for further input from a midwestern not so surprise dyke