Friday, November 28, 2008


If you have a family that has abandoned you, is judgmental, or in any way does not support you being gay, you probably don't want to read this post.  Really.  Stop reading.  

Now to those of you who have supportive families, and those who were brave enough to keep reading even though I encouraged you not to, I got an enormous piece of humble pie yesterday at my big gay family Turkey Day dinner.  There were about twelve people who came to dinner throughout the day.  I say throughout the day because some people went to visit their genetic family first and then came to join us later, while others (like me) only went to one dinner.  I sat in amazement as I heard story after story from people who went to see their families.  Stories of how they were treated, were talked at and not talked to, were ostracized, not allowed to spend time with their nieces and nephews, etc.  How they are allowed to come to holiday events, but their girlfriend of several years is not ever allowed in the house.  I then found out that of the people who didn't go to see their families at all, it wasn't just because of distance.  No, it's because their families have abandoned them.  Completely.

Now I know some of you are reading this and thinking, yeah TSD some families suck, what are you getting at?  Here's what I'm getting at (in a naturally very long winded sort of way) I was shocked.  Honestly shocked.  I know that there are families out there who are like this, who use religion and hypocrisy and tradition to push away their children.  But I didn't realize just how prevalent it was.  When I am the only one of twelve people sitting at a table who wasn't ignored, put down, or abandoned by my family, it brings to light just how common it is.  I didn't realize, I just didn't.  Here are some past links as to how awesome my parents just are My Dad and My Mom.  Yeah, they're amazing...and sometimes I forget.

I called my parents when I left dinner just to tell them that I love them and to tell them that I am thankful for how amazing they are.  About everything.  About supporting my career choice, helping me through college, raising me to be an independent member of society, teaching me good manners, instilling in me an obligation to volunteer in the community, and loving me unconditionally for who I am.  Want me to brag on them a little bit more?  I'd love to.  When I explained what prompted all of this, their reaction was classically them: bewildered that anyone could stop loving their child because of who they are.  And assurance that I can always be me, am always welcome in their home (as is anyone I ever bring) and that it's ridiculous for parents to be like that.

How am I today?  Humbled.  And very very very thankful to be so blessed.  We forget how lucky we are until we are surrounded by those who are not.  Now to those of you who read this against my suggestion, here is the hope I leave you.  Don't despair, your parents may change one day.  I'm not being naive and saying they will, I'm saying they might.  One of my friends, who's parents have taken the religious-abandon-til-they-find-Jesus-route, asked to spend time with us.  To meet us, to get to know us.  It's taken them many many many years, but they are moving forward.  So don't give up on them.  Lastly to those of you who are in my camp, call your family, tell them thank you.  

We don't say it enough.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Reason #1 through infinity

Reason # 1 through infinity on how I made it through today: my amazing students.

Y'all know they are amazing.  I have bragged on them in the past.  But nothing, I mean nothing, like I am going to brag on them today.  So, as you all know I have a major bully at work who had me in tears yesterday afternoon, last night, early this morning, intermittently throughout the day, and evening over hateful and hurtful things she had said.  Well, I asked a "leading question" in the office about the building being closed over break and needing to be here (they then led the conversation so I wasn't a "tattle tale" but simply answering questions), etc.  A couple hours later my AP came to my classroom to affirm that I am a competent person, the office supports me, I am a valid employee and not to take it personal.  Not so much people.  Not so much, because attacking the core of my person is very, very personal.  And I let them know about the last three years.  I spilled and I spilled and I spilled and I cried and I cried and I cried like a weenie.  It was nice to hear they support me, but really, it is personal.  When  I went back to class it was pretty obvious I had been crying and the children, being children, asked what was wrong.

Here's the scene:

Me: I'm okay boys and girls.  Really, I'm okay.
Child: But you were crying.  What happened?
Me: Well, someone was very mean to Miss ____.  They said some hurtful things, and sometimes when grownups are upset, they cry like kids do.  
Child: Was (Assistant Principal) mean to you?  Did he hurt your feelings?
Me: No, no boys and girls.  (Assistant Principal) came to talk to try and make me feel better.  But sometimes when we talk about something that makes us sad, we cry.  Even if it's not that person's fault.  (Assistant Principal) was trying to help.
Child: But why would someone say mean things to you?
Me: [at this point I'm feeling myself tearing up again] I'm not sure boys and girls.  It wasn't very nice and I'm trying to be strong for you, but it's really hard today because they were very very mean and made me feel very bad about myself. [cue full on tears in the classroom, in front of the children...a first ever people, a first ever]

At this point the entire class got up, raced over, and gave me hugs.  They were saying things like, "it's okay to cry if you're sad" and "you're a great teacher Miss _____"  and "we're here for you" and so on and so on.

[Cue super big tears at this point]

Child: Our hugs aren't helping?
Me: Yes, yes they are.  These are good tears.  I'm realizing how lucky I am to have such wonderful and caring boys and girls in my room.  Grownups are weird, sometimes we cry over good things too.

Out on the playground later:

J--(y'all know J): [wrapping his little arms around my waist] How ya feeling Miss ______?
Me: Better.  The hugs from the class helped.
J: Good.  Cuz I don't like that someone was mean to you.  You should tell them that that is a repeller and no one will want to be their friend.

If he only knew...if he only knew...

P.S. There is much more to the story, but essentially, I'm now the ringleader (according to my mom...who by the way, I KNOW YOU READ THIS YOU GOOBER-WHO-DOESN'T-SAY-ANYTHING-ON-THE-PHONE...I KNOW!!!!) I didn't set out the be the leader but alas, that is the way it has been at work.  I can't help it.  I got hurt.  I got pissed.  I took a chance.  I opened my mouth and big can of worms (you thought I was going to say whoop-ass didn't you?)...we shall see how the story unfolds...I will be out front leading the protest to Central Office if need be.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Seriously Contemplating

I'm seriously contemplating my current work situation.  I love my kids.  I love my grade level.  I love making a difference.  I love my job.  I don't love being told I'm a incompetent.  I don't love being talked to as a child.  I don't love being belittled.  I don't love being treated as less than others.  I don't love one person at work.  It's bad y'all.  I've come to the realization today that I have a bully at work.  Not only do I have a bully, but it's someone who has the power to (and is) making my job awful.  Worst part about it, there is nothing I can do.  I've tried ignoring her, avoiding her, never speaking to her, pretending she doesn't exist.  It only makes it worse.  She's pissed because I'm good at my job and I don't need her.  She needs me to need her.  She can piss on a volcano.  I'm damn good at what I do, but really, is it worth being treating like this?  I'm not so sure anymore....

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Turkey Day is Coming!

Turkey Day is coming y'all!  (I know, I know, thanks for stating the obvious TSD, no problem, it's my pleasure! [super bonus points if you know the restaurant reference])  This will be the first year that I won't see my family for Turkey Day (cue sad, "awww" from the crowd) but it's okay.  I'll see them for 10 days during winter break...that more than makes up for it.  This year I am getting together with my gay posse and having dinner together as one big dysfunctional homo family.  I'm stoked.  I mean if I can't be with my actual family, I might as well be with my big gay family, right?  I have a sneaking suspicion that it might actually be better...but don't tell my parents....(they'll find out anyways....CUZ I KNOW YOU READ THIS!!!!!!!!  That's right peoples, I'm calling you out on reading my blog and not ever commenting or acknowledging it on the phone!)  Anyhoo, for me Turkey Day (by the way, it's never called Thanksgiving in my house, but always Turkey Day) is all about some parade action..Disney Parade, Macy's Parade, parades, parades, parades, and a football game that I will watch but not really care about...I'll be thinking about the parades earlier, and good food later...Turkey Day Y''s coming....quicker than Christmas....

Thursday, November 20, 2008

I must be insane.

Really.  I must be insane.  That is the only logical explanation.  Confused?  Explanation.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

My job actually matters!

I know that my job actually matters, really I do.  That I am making a positive impact on society, providing a positive role model for kids, shaping and molding the future of our country, blah, blah, blah....but let's be real....most days it doesn't feel like I'm really making a positive impact on society, it feels like kiddie crowd control.  Today however, was totally different.  I live for the teachable moment at work--for you non-education peoples, "a teachable moment" is when something happens, or is said that changes the direction of your lesson to help educate and foster their interests/investigative nature/curiosity.  

Here is the scene.  I am sitting at my desk scoring scoring an assessment they did earlier today while the children are having their silent reading time at their seats.  Y'all know who it stars...your favorite and mine...J!

J: [racing to my desk]  (in an emphatic whisper) Miss _____!  Miss ______! You NEED to come see my book.  There is a VERY bad word in it.  I don't think this book should be in our room.

(Side note: earlier today J was appropriately distraught because there was a curse word written on one of the stalls in the boys' bathroom.  He was afraid another kid would see it, say it, and get in sweet is that!  Oh, in case you are wondering the word was fuck, but it was spelled fook...clearly by a kid who needs to go back to Phonics 101 and waste less time graffitiing the bathroom.)

Me: Take a breath, is it something someone wrote in the book that we can erase?

J: No, it part of the book!  The arthur (yes, arthur) wrote it!

Me: Ok, bring the book over.  [Now at this point I am getting nervous, because we have over 600 books in our classroom-seriously, I stopped counting when I reached 600-and I have not read every one.  I was trying to control my freak out since who knows what word he found in what book.]

J: It's right here, in this poem.

Me: [looking] Where?

J: [emphatically pointing] Right here!

Are you wondering what the bad word was?  Are you on the edge of your seat?  Have you made a prediction?  The word

He was freaking out.
Over the bad word.

The gist of the poem from what I quickly skimmed was about an elephant who played with friends, lived in the jungle, what they did for fun, and that their life was carefree and gay (i.e. happy--it was an old poem)

Now at this point I have about .003 seconds to decide what to do.  How to handle this, how to address this, what exactly he will understand, my legal limit of explanation, and then I said to myself, "Self, fook it and do what is right."

So I did.  I fooked it and did what was right.  J and I had a very long talk about how in the poem it means happy, origin of word meanings, other places it is used (Flintstones intro, Christmas songs), how word meanings have changed over time, now it's a synonym for homosexual, etc.  Here are bits and pieces of our conversation.

Me: Gay is not a bad word.

J: It's not?

Me: Nope.  It's not.

J: [hesistating] But then, how come people say it like they're mad?  Like it's something really bad?

Me: Well, it's like when a bully yells "freckle-face!" or "four-eyes!"  It's not a bad thing someone has freckles or glasses, it's just a fact.

J: Oh.  Ok.  [pondering]  Someone should tell them it's not a bad word, they might hurt someone's feelings.  Cuz I know it hurts A's feelings when people say four-eyes, and his glasses are nice.  It would hurt my feelings too, cuz I like my freckles.  I can't change I have freckles and it's mean it tease people.

(How much more do you love this kid!!!!)

At one point another child, T, who was sitting nearby joined us for our little impromptu PSA conversation.

T: Hey!  I read that poem too!  I thought they just forgot the r.

Me: [totally lost] The r?

T:  Yeah, that the elephant was gray.  

So today, my job actually mattered.  I made a positive impact on society, helped to mold the future of our country, and hopefully, aided in the progressive change of understanding and acceptance of all.

As every good PSA should end....the more you know  :-)

Monday, November 17, 2008

Conflicted Feelings

Ok, so I've been having some conflicted feelings lately about my blog.  No worries, I'm not going anywhere, I've got too much to say to leave y'all!  But I have been feeling rather conflicted about the direction that it may be taking.  
Here's where I'm stuck.  My blog started as an outlet to my gay life in the conservative south where I was the only homo in my group of straight friends.  It's  definitely morphed since then, which is a good thing, because it reflects the life that I lead, the passions I have, and the reality of what is happening around me.  I've begun to feel conflicted because for a while I have been politically quiet, yet active.  If that's not an oxymoron, I don't know what is...what I mean is that I have been active and informed in local politics, but have never been very vocal...until now.  I don't know if it's the passing of Prop 8, 102, and 2 that did it....but I won't be quiet anymore.  I don't want it to take over my blog, but I feel if I am to give y'all an accurate reflection of my life and who I am, I need to share these things with you, because as you all know, that's how I roll.  So, very long winded way of saying...I don't know the direction of this blog, which, I guess is a good thing...right?
Anyhoo, just wanted to share what has been going on in my head and in my heart...thanks for listening (or more accurately reading) to my ramble.
Here is a poem I wrote today after talking with a friend about the revolution we are witnessing and that is taking form around the country.

Don't forget to vote on the side!

My people [that would be those of you reading this now], I put a poll link on the right...don't forget to vote for what you think the title should be below (remember, your vote counts...even if it is just related to my little blog...)  Only two of you have voted so far...I know who you are!!! :-)

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Homo says No'mo holidays out of season

I really wanted to use the title "Are you kidding me???" but I've already used "R U Kidding?" in a previous post about the ridiculousness of text language being spoken and the I thought I could title it "Seriously???" but that has been used, so has "For Effin Serious People. For. Effin. Serious".  Which basically tells me that I need to work on my descriptive, by default I've titled this post You decide and I'll change it....because if you decide on a title and I think it's good, I'll change it to that...kinda like the choose your own adventure books...but not...

Wow, very long intro, is the scene/ decide on a title...
I was in the car driving home from church this morning (like the good little Christian I am) and on the radio I hear....wait for it....wait for it.....the twelve days of Christmas.  I'll give you a moment to process that.            Moment over.  What the hell???????  (ooo, maybe that should be the title?)  Now, I have nothing against the song, but I do have a MAJOR issue when it is being played on November 16...that's just wrong.  I love Christmas, it's my favorite holiday following Groundhog Day (yes, I am completely serious) but I have a HUGE problem celebrating holidays out of order.  It wigs me out to see Christmas decorations next to Halloween ones, and to hear Christmas songs before's just wrong.  Wrong I tell you!  Wrong!  On the plus side, I got an e-mail from a friend recommending a shirt for me to wear home.  (Side note: I own no gay paraphernalia.  No pride necklaces, no "Lez be friends" shirts.  None of that...generally I think it is corny, but that's just me.)  I busted apart laughing and decided right then and there I was wearing this at Christmastime at my parents' house.

I know, I know, you are dying to see it....wait no longer you go:
How awesome is that!  I guess it would help to tell you that my mom has like a million (okay 35ish) holiday sweaters that she wears during the season.  I can already tell you what the reaction will be from each of the rents...Mom--laughter, "That's awesome!"  Dad--shake head, deep sigh, "Really kid?" (while deep down inside I know he thinks it's awesome too)  I'm stoked...thoughts/opinions/title/etc.?

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Raleigh Protest Summary

I am rarely at a loss for words.  If you have been following my blog for any amount of time, this is pretty evident by my lengthy posts.  Today however is different.  All I can say about today is wow.

Now that I've taken some time to process, reflect and put together what I want to post, here is my perspective on the Join the Impact Protest from Raleigh, NC. on Saturday, November 15, 2008.  I will preface that this is going to be a long don't say I didn't warn you....
I arrived in Raleigh at around 1:00 and searched around for a parking space for what seemed like forever until I found a visitor parking deck that was open and not requiring payment (woot woot!) and was near the protest location.  This was an extra bonus point, since I'm not familiar with Raleigh and would have never found the place on my own...not that I needed to, there were droves of people walking in the same direction and I just followed the pack.  Here is a picture of what the area looked like around 1:30:
Honestly, the picture doesn't really do the scene justice....there were 1,400 people there....yeah....again why I needed some time to get past "wow."  Notice the nice blue sky with the white puffy clouds....As the speakers were getting started the sky went from friendly blue to.....
and then the rain came....and came....and came...and I really thought people would leave.  But they didn't.  And then I thought they would stop the speaker (who p.s. didn't have on a rain coat and said, "Don't worry about it, I'm fine" when one of the guys who organized it stepped on stage to hold an umbrella over his head.  How bad ass is that???) But they didn't.  They just kept talking and we just kept standing and clapping and cheering and getting wet.  And they I thought they would cancel the march.  But they didn't.  And then I thought to myself, "Self, this place will clear out when we get ready to march and it will be like 12 of us soaked on the sidewalk."  Did the people leave?  Did they say "I'm down with protesting, but I'm not down with getting wet?"  No they didn't!  Check this out y'all!
Now I didn't realize how many people were there until I walked down the steps from the lawn to get to the sidewalk and there was people everywhere.  We shared umbrellas (and then just gave in to being soaked) and shared the moment of knowing we were part of something big.  It literally gave me chills to hear from the front to the back "What do we want? EQUALITY! When do we want it? NOW!"  Over and over and over, cars honking, people giving us thumbs up, and an energy that said, "We are united, we are pissed, and we aren't going anywhere.  North Carolina, listen up, pay attention and you better get ready for a revolution because we are."  Then we got the governor's mansion and stood outside the gates chanting, when someone hoisted a PRIDE flag onto the flagpole.  There was an audible gasp, as I'm still not sure how they did it since the flagpole was inside the gates...and we were outside the gates, but the gasp turned into cheers turned into chanting "Yes we can! Yes we can!" and "Gay, straight, black, white, marriage is a civil right!" and back to the staple of "What do we want? EQUALITY! When do we want it? NOW!"  By the time we got back to the starting point the sky was now like this:
All in all, not a bad way to end the day...the only thing that would have made it better was if there was a bad ass rainbow in the sky...but you can't have it all...or can you? :-)
Last I leave you with some pictures of signs and posters people had...there were a lot more, but unfortunately I couldn't take as many pictures as I wanted because of the rain, and because of the crowd (I'm short....heads got in the way).
Now it's your turn.  If you were at a protest today, put a link to your blog/vlog/website/etc. in the comment section and let me know about it.  I leave you with a quote from Ghandi that one of our speakers used today which pretty much sums it all up: First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win.  

We will win...we will win.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Funniest kid story EVER

Funniest kid story EVER...and not it's not about J (sorry to disappoint y'all)

So my kids were playing "Silent Ball" in the classroom today since we couldn't go out due to inclement weather (i.e. rain).  It's like their all time favorite game, and I don't mind it too much because they have to be silent and I can get some work done.  

Here's the scene: I'm sitting at the side table tracing in black marker over a turkey feather worksheet thing we are going to turn into mini book reports for the wall.

Little B (hereby known as LB-who side note is not a native English speaker, so I wrote it as he talks to me) plops down next to me: What are you a doing Miss _____?
Me: Tracing this for next week.  What are you doing?
LB: Watching.

[silence for about 3 minutes while he seriously watched me trace black outlines]

LB: Hey Miss _____, is this for the Thanksgiving?
Me: Well it's for Monday, but it's themed for Thanksgiving.
LB: Oh.  (pause) Okay [side note, he has no idea what "themed for Thanksgiving means"] I like it.
Me: Thank you B.
LB: What is you do for Thanksgiving?  You go to have food?  You parents eat too?  In a home?
Me: No, they are too far away.  I'm going to have dinner with friends.
LB: Friends?
Me: Yes, I'm going to have dinner with my friends here.  Everyone is bringing one food to share and we will have dinner together, like a family.
LB: [eyes big as saucers and excited voice] Friends!  You have friends Miss ____!  Whoa!
Me: Huh?
LB: I didn't know!  What do you friend do?  What do they live?

[end scene] 

Now at this point I am trying to not pee my pants laughing at this kid who all of a sudden realized that their teacher is a real person, with a real life, and real (believe it or not) friends.  How hilarious is that!  Oh peoples, it gets better.  

[pick the scene up a few minutes later when he calls over his friend T]

LB: Did you know Miss ___ has friends?  Here!  She eat wift them for Turkey!  Why you laugh Miss ___?
Me: (still trying to breathe and not pee) I...I'm.....sorry B...I'm not laughing at you....honest
T: She's laughing cuz you didn't think she had friends.  Of course she has friends, she has a life.
LB: (quoting a class phrase) Oh, yes...."Miss ____ has a life too" wift her friends!

[end scene]

Now y'all know that little boy when home and told his mamma and daddy that Miss ____ has friends, and it will get lost in translation, and they will think I am even weirder than I am...oh the joys of little children....never a dull moment.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I want it all

This is probably like the worst post to follow up after "I'm such a girl" but it happened yesterday and y'all know how I happens, I share, you enjoy and comment.  So yeah, here we go.

My roommate and I have been living together for about six years now (co-dependent anyone?) and we have often talked about marriage (not to each other, she is straight and for the record not my type), family, what we want out of life, etc. and in the six years of our friendship here have been our generalized identities in regards to family:

Her desires: rent a place and live in a city, get married, have kids, move out of the city 
My desires:  be single, no children, own my own home and be completely independent

Very different in lots of ways, however in the last year or so we have pretty much reversed, which is f.r.e.a.k.y.  She has zero desire for marrying her long-term boyfriend and wants to raise no children while I want to have it all and it is freaking me out.

Here is what I want...and no laughing (seriously), because I know...I know....

I want a wife to come home to, children to tuck in at night that look like my wife, a dog, a nice house in a good neighborhood where my children can play in the fenced in backyard and get a good education, and a stable job where I can pay my bills and still have money in the savings account...I want it all

I have 3 out of the 5 and for a while that was enough...I mean I bought my 3 bedroom 2 bath house the other year with a future family in mind.  But now I can feel the desire growing inside more and more and I want it that too much to ask?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

I'm such a girl

Y'all....I am such a girl.  I don't make this statement very often, and while yes, I do recognize that I am a girl, and people always assume I'm straight, I usually don't feel exceptionally girlie (if that makes any sense at all, please let me know...I only rewrote it about a billion [okay eight] times trying to make it coherent but I'm not sure it helped).  Today however is a very different story.  Monday night I called CLF and asked her out for dinner on Friday (Yay me for keeping the pair I grew on Friday!), came up with an activity, made reservations, etc. and then I realized....I have nothing to wear.  (Cue embarrassed red face and shaking head in shame)  I mean honestly, you should totally laugh at that statement.  SOOOOOO, today on my day off I went shopping.  Here is what I bought: new silver earrings and two sweaters-one dark teal and one burgandy.  Why two sweaters you ask?  (Raise your hand if you know the answer without looking!)  

Because I'm not sure which one I'm going to want to wear.
Really people??? Really???  I'm the chick that packs 1 pair of jeans and 4 T-shirts for a week long trip and here I am buying two sweaters for one date.  I am such a girl....

Sunday, November 9, 2008


Whatever your plans for Saturday, November 15, 2008 are, cancel them.  I don't care what they are, how long they have been planned, you NEED to reschedule or cancel.  No excuses.  There is a nationwide protest being held throughout the country to protest the passing of Proposition 8 of California, Amendment 2 of Florida and Amendment 102 of Arizona.  Here is the link to find your protest location .  If you think this doesn't affect you because you don't live in one of those three states, think again.  Why will other states try to fight for equal rights for all people when the "popular" vote states otherwise?  (I put popular in quotes because Prop.8 only passed by 400,000 votes...again another case where your vote actually does matter.)  

If you fall anywhere in the queer spectrum you HAVE to be at a protest, you just have to.  It's not an issue, it's the issue.  It's bigger than marriage, it's bigger than California, it's bigger than's openly allowing the majority to determine the civil liberties of the minority, and it's wrong.  

If you are a straight ally, you HAVE to be a protest.  We need you, we need your visibility, we need your solidarity to our community, we need you to speak to other straight people about how me gaining the same rights doesn't somehow negate your rights.  We need the community to come together across the nation, stop being okay with being tolerated, and demand to be respected as equals.  We're not asking to be treated special, we're demanding to be treated the same.  
You have one week to reschedule your plans for Saturday and drive your gay ass to a protest.  No excuses.  It's my nephew's first birthday.  Trust me, he won't remember you weren't there.  It's my best friend's baby shower.  Send a second gift.  It's my parents' 50th wedding anniversary, we've been planning it for 2 years.  Well, if they don't understand why you aren't there then they probably don't understand you.  It's a 3 1/2 hour drive, have you seen the cost of gas lately?  If that's your excuse you must be content being a second class citizen...and don't even think of bitching when you have no legal grounds with the person you love.  

Tell everyone you know, be there, be proud, stand your ground and don't act a damn fool.  We need to be seen and heard, and we need to do it with decorum, because if we don't the media will have a hay-day and we will not get anywhere.  Take pictures, take video, upload and show your solidarity to the community.

I leave you with Declaration of Guilt by Pastor Martin Niemoller (October 1945):

In Germany, the Nazis first came for the Communists,
And I did not speak up
Because I was not a Communist.
Then they came for the Jews,
And I did not speak up
because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists,
And I did not speak up
Because I was not a Trade Unionists.
Then they came for the Catholics,
And I was a Protestant
So I did not speak up.
Then they came for ME...
By that time
There was no one to speak up for anyone.
To make sure this doesn't happen again, the injustice
To anyone
Must be the concern of

There.  I am off of my soapbox...but I'm carrying it with me on Saturday.

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."--Edmund Burke.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Putting it on record

I just want to start by saying on record, "This is a bad idea.  Nothing good can come from this, and I am fully acknowledging the bad idea that this is."  There, I've said it.  Moving on....or rather moving backwards to tell you the story that has lead up to this preemptive statement.

Last Friday (Halloween) I rolled up to the local gay bar (a.k.a. The Bar, because really, where else do I go?) and the place was hopping.  I mean really hopping.  I found my crew and was chilling with them at our tables when I saw this girl sitting nearby who I have never seen there before.  [Side note: Now, I have zero gaydar...I mean zero....and have stopped hitting on women because I am 3 for 3 in finding the only straight girl at the bar who is there with their gay friend/family member and hitting on her...seriously.  I've given up, and if you are interested in me you need to get your gay ass up and come talk to me, because if I'm into you, you are probably straight.  So, yeah...]  Anyway, I see Cutie Little Femme (hereby known as CLF) and based on my track record assume she is straight.  Well my good friend S, notices her checking me out and as a great wingman should, introduces herself, opens the door and walks away.  Realizing she is in the community I go for it, because seriously people, CLF is my type to a T.  I mean from the hair color, to the style, everything....and I'm thinking, S just became an even more awesome friend and I need to hook her up with someone later.  As the night goes on I am macking on this girl something fierce and she is throwing it right back....and then out of curiosity I asked how old she was.....wait for it people......wait for it......eighteen.   WTF???  She did not look eighteen, act eighteen, or anything.  Me being me, I instantly hit the breaks because that is a BIG age difference.  S notices this and asks what's up, I explain and she feel awful because she opened the door.  (Side note: everyone thought she was around 22...S, R, A, me, D...everyone....)  I'm internally freaking out, feeling like a predator, but I cannot shake this girl....I mean, she would smile and I was drawn right back in like a moth to a flame.....then I would hear the voice of reasoning in my head, distance myself again, only to find myself drawn back in.  Everything inside of me wanted to get her number but the voice of reasoning held out because again, she is eighteen.

Pick back up last night at the drag king show at The Bar (which by the way was AWESOME!) and CLF shows up (yes, I was hoping she would) and she comes by, says hi, etc. and then goes off to talk with some other people she had met the other weekend.  I'm not an idiot (although this situation may sway your vote otherwise) and I can see her checking me out and smiling from across the room during the night.  Towards the end of the night she asks me to dance, we talk some more, I'm getting ready to head out and saying my goodbyes to my people.  I go over to her to say goodnight, good to see you again, drive safe, etc. ....then I decided I should grow a pair.  Yes people, I asked for her number....her face lit up, and we exchanged digits.  

Again, I would like to go on record as the first person saying, "This is a bad idea.  Nothing good can come from this, and I am fully acknowledging the bad idea that this is."  

And I don't care.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Jumping on the bandwagon

Yes, I too am jumping on the election bandwagon today...but there are just a couple of funny/scary stories that I feel I need to share with the world.  (Side note: I voted early because I knew I wouldn't have time to get to the polls today...just in case you were wondering if I was bitching but didn't actually do anything...yes, I did my civic duty, so yes, I can bitch.)

Story #1
I was in the cafeteria today and was talking with a co-worker named H while I was heating up my lunch in the microwave.  We were talking about voting, voting early, etc. and she made this statement, "If it is still raining when I leave here, I am not going to vote.  Or if the line is really long, it's just not worth it."  I shit you not people, she really said this.  It took EVERYTHING inside of me to control my face and keep my big mouth shut....but seriously?  Seriously????  If she was a democrat I would have pitched a fit, but she's a staunch republican, so she can keep her vote to herself, I'm just saying...  All I could think was, "you are not going to vote and I know you will bitch, moan and groan about something in the next 4 years, and about the countless local elections."  It was one of those moments where I realized that people really have forgotten what happened in Florida 8 years ago.

Story #2
We had the students vote by secret ballot to see who they would elect if their votes counted and the results were interesting to say the least.  My co-worker R's classroom unanimously voted for McCain with the exception of 5 students...where as my class was split 14 to 10.  At the end of the day she was racing to leave because as she eloquently put it, "I have to go cancel out her vote before the polls close!"  This just cracked me up since really, isn't that what makes a democracy great?

Story #3
We also had the students write about what they would do if they were the president.  Top 3 funniest [No, I didn't just suddenly decide to ignore the spell check icon.  This is what the students actually wrote down on their papers, spelling errors and all.] 

1) One boy had a very long message, but what made it awesome was at the bottom he put My name is ____ and I oppoved this massage.

2) If I wus the president I would make sure the zooz keeped all the animals loked up or thay will ate us for a snak and that wood be bad for the ekonome.

3)If I was the president I would banned you if you waz mean.  Don't be a bully or yous will be banned from the town, state and cuntry.  I will ban you and you will be bannned for life.  I also will banned tobacco, alkohal, and druks.  If you do these things you will be banned.  ____ for President! <-- I put that bekus I'm xcitit.

Honestly, I think these kids might be awesome as a president....and yes, in case you were wondering, J is kid number much more do you love him!