Monday, November 17, 2008

Conflicted Feelings

Ok, so I've been having some conflicted feelings lately about my blog.  No worries, I'm not going anywhere, I've got too much to say to leave y'all!  But I have been feeling rather conflicted about the direction that it may be taking.  
Here's where I'm stuck.  My blog started as an outlet to my gay life in the conservative south where I was the only homo in my group of straight friends.  It's  definitely morphed since then, which is a good thing, because it reflects the life that I lead, the passions I have, and the reality of what is happening around me.  I've begun to feel conflicted because for a while I have been politically quiet, yet active.  If that's not an oxymoron, I don't know what is...what I mean is that I have been active and informed in local politics, but have never been very vocal...until now.  I don't know if it's the passing of Prop 8, 102, and 2 that did it....but I won't be quiet anymore.  I don't want it to take over my blog, but I feel if I am to give y'all an accurate reflection of my life and who I am, I need to share these things with you, because as you all know, that's how I roll.  So, very long winded way of saying...I don't know the direction of this blog, which, I guess is a good thing...right?
Anyhoo, just wanted to share what has been going on in my head and in my heart...thanks for listening (or more accurately reading) to my ramble.
Here is a poem I wrote today after talking with a friend about the revolution we are witnessing and that is taking form around the country.


sheA said...


dang JerZEEE- all kinda talent going on out there on the East Coast...nice job on the poem

As far as the blogation ( yes- it's a word in my world) goes- you could always write 2 blogs- not like you don't do TOO much already- but one could be like the political rebirth in your soul- and one could be just like hangin out with JerZay kickin it old school... Oh the possibilties

Carolyn said...

The quite ones were always the ones you had to watch out for. hehe. I know what you mean, having prop 8 on our ballot this year made me really vocal (and being shit scared of Palin too) this year when I usually try and stear clear of political conversations.

Psh, a blog with direction is overrated. Our lives change direction quite a bit, so it makes sense that our blogs will too. I can't even stay on topic in a discussion.

Share all you want! I enjoy reading what you write. Awesome poem by the way.

P.S. You never told us how your date went. Don't think I forgot! hehe.

P.P.S. o.O I think I've done the 'P.S.' bit a lot here haha.

The Surprise Dyke said...

Shea...I heart your invented "blogation" is that like a blog-obligation or a blog-nation or a blog-obligation to the nation? I don't know what it means, but I like it!

The Surprise Dyke said...

Carolyn--We quite ones are dangerous, we sneak up, pounce and then walk away unnoticed leaving a path behind us.

P.S.-I concur, I'm going to just let it be and see what happens

P.P.S-I'm not holding out, we had to reschedule for this upcoming weekend...and even if I was holding out, I know my people won't let me hide for long!

P.P.P.S--you can never have too many!

The Surprise Dyke said...

Thanks, glad y'all liked the poem. I haven't really written poetry in a while so I'm a little rusty. I'm currently working on a children's book that is at a creative editing standstill...why do I do these things to myself???? I know why, because it is who I am and I have to do it, despite the frustration.

sheA said...

Jersey - I like to think of it as your blogation .... as in recommended daily allowance to the nation of blog- you never can get too much- and ps- when you come to the end of the stand still and get a move on up creative editing wise- perhaps I can get a copy of said children's book - not that you would need to inscribe it- I mean- I am your people so- I think that would count for something- and I would NEVER sell it on ebay- for which I am sure I could get a million or two-ish american doll hairs ( shea-speak for Ameican Dollars )...I'm just saying...