Wednesday, November 12, 2008

I want it all

This is probably like the worst post to follow up after "I'm such a girl" but it happened yesterday and y'all know how I roll...it happens, I share, you enjoy and comment.  So yeah, here we go.

My roommate and I have been living together for about six years now (co-dependent anyone?) and we have often talked about marriage (not to each other, she is straight and for the record not my type), family, what we want out of life, etc. and in the six years of our friendship here have been our generalized identities in regards to family:

Her desires: rent a place and live in a city, get married, have kids, move out of the city 
My desires:  be single, no children, own my own home and be completely independent

Very different in lots of ways, however in the last year or so we have pretty much reversed, which is f.r.e.a.k.y.  She has zero desire for marrying her long-term boyfriend and wants to raise no children while I want to have it all and it is freaking me out.

Here is what I want...and no laughing (seriously), because I know...I know....

I want a wife to come home to, children to tuck in at night that look like my wife, a dog, a nice house in a good neighborhood where my children can play in the fenced in backyard and get a good education, and a stable job where I can pay my bills and still have money in the savings account...I want it all

I have 3 out of the 5 and for a while that was enough...I mean I bought my 3 bedroom 2 bath house the other year with a future family in mind.  But now I can feel the desire growing inside more and more and I want it all....is that too much to ask?

3 comments:

sheA said...

JerSay-seriously not at all too much. Sorta sweet picturing you and your wife hangin out with the kids making mac and cheese for dinner playing "who wants to be a lumberjack" reading the baseball boxscores ( Go MudHens..LOL ) naming your dawg laLoosh in respect and love of Bull Durham...seriously- not too much to ask at all...

The Surprise Dyke said...

Thanks Shea, my roommate laughed when I told her this but thankfully she redeemed herself with (paraphrasing her quick ramble CHA [cover her ass] explaination) "No no no, I'm not laughing at you wanting it all I'm laughing because you just got all cutesie....aww, and now your face is red. Stop hiding in your hoodie, it's cute, I've just never heard you say you want a wide and kids, it's so domestic...hehe, I'm telling your mom so she can start trying to marry you off and get some grandkids to spoil!" (cue her running like hell as I'm attacking with a pillow)

Carolyn said...

I'm sorry, but I have to say it.

Awwwww.

Now you just need a wife and kids =) And of course it's not too much to ask. I want it all too, except I've only got 1 out of 5, the doggie hehe.